emotions and thoughts…

12Apr07

i am so lucky…

to have you…

my biiii is the sweetest…

although sometimes he really upsets me and make me angry, most of the time spent with him was great!!! we meet up almost every single day… for a meal or for a movie… it feels weird without seeing him for a day!!! it makes me misses him sooooo much…

have been feeling rather depress lately… maybe cos i have too much time to spare!!! well, not really cos i have lots to do!!! have been living lush ever since my course is over!!! concentrating on my driving lessons, aiming to pass end of this year… fingers crossed…

i have moved back for slightly more than a year… to be exact, a year and 2 months!!! so much have changed… my surroundings, my friends, my lifestyle and myself… as i moved along, i have learned a lot and of course, i have faced certain problems which made me “grow” up… helped me manage and handle problems in a slightly more mature manner!!!

people around me have thought me a lot too…

thank you so much!!!

when i think back… the best times of my life was when i was in the uk!!! i had a group of frens… now, those are the people i truely classified them as my friends…

whenever i feel down, i share it with them… whenever i feel happy, i share it with them… we were like a family!!! everyone stands by for each other… this kind of feeling pretty much dissappeared into the mist of Singapore’s busy and hectic lifestyle… whereby, everyone is busy with their own things and have tat “mind ur own business” and “leave me alone” stated on their bloody foreheads…

sometimes, i question myself again and again…

what is a fren?

who are my frens?

well, would u like to enlighten me these questions i have in my mind? i have been moving around eversince high school and believe me, i know hundreds and hundreds or people around the globe… but how many of them are my friends? who will be there for me when i need them?

it really upsets me when i think that i have only a hand full of soul mates around >>> out of that hundreds and hundreds… but on the other hand… i feel that i am soooooo lucky to have this hand full of soul mates as they are my true frens…

frens who will be there for me no matter wat… my sister who is here to protect and support me all along… my bb, who manage to make me smile after making me cry!!!

well, at least it is better then some people… as far as i know, there are some people without any frens nor soul mates… you know wat they do?

they imagine…

i know a few people who are like tat… they make themselves to SEEM popular and busy, involved themselves in all sort of activities… all those busy, hectic and popular schedules act as a “blanket” to cover up their emptiness… some even imagine that they have a girlfriend or boyfriend!!! how sad is tat?

these people often loves attention… you will know it when u have a conversation with them!!! as they will ALWAYS presume they are MR or MRS KNOW IT ALL… they will knot their heads and go “yea yea yea, i know that”… but in actual fact, they do not  know shit… and they will go on and on talking about things >>> which i call BULLSHITTING

you know… the funny thing is >>> which i already expect that!!! whatever these losers talk about are things they never show!!! like proves… well, i am not asking for evidence, i m not a police BUT when u fucking say u have a girlfriend, SHOW us a bloody photo!!! and stop acting LUSH… been here, been there, bought this, bought that… cos i know you are NOT LUSH…

ok…

going back to the fren topic…

arent frens suppose to share most thoughts and things together? i share my life with my best girlfriendssss… there is nothing to hide!!! i would love them to know how i feel, how happy i m and how sad i am… as these are times you are gonna look back and feel their presence and encouragement in you… i tend not to hide anything from my best gfssss… i will tell them absolutely ANYTHING if they ask… i might jus blah it out even if they didnt ask!!!

haha…

so…

tell me…

what is a fren?

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